At this moment

I'm trying to go back to school, fix my car, get a different job and follow dreams...  someone (it feels like everyone) has to throw a wrench in my happy... why.... I ask for help and what to I get.. lectures, bad omens.... all manners of foreboding. I know I've been a pain... I am a pain, but why can't 'they' see that I'm doing my best. I'm not amazing but dammit I'm doing my best. I'm trying really I am.

I'm working on another idea to help my work... don't hold your breath though these are MAJOR long shots.