Not happy, but happy.

I am so freaking sick I could scream! I have a nasty bacterial infection in my respiratory system, pink eye, and allergies. I had to take the day off work to 'rest'. But I don't rest. I can't be idle. It drives me mad. So what do I do instead... play on the internet, make notes on projects, think about my samples that need to be finished, daydream, putter around the house bored... all the while hoping that someone likes me up there enough to make all this horrible stuff go away. I do have antibiotics for it all, but they never work fast enough for me. I was done with this 3 days ago. I'm okay with the things I have done, but good I'd like to be doing more with my day off. Why do I only get days off when I'm sick?

Ailments.

I have a list of ailments. Allergy season has decide to finally hit me in the face. Which is all fine and good because I have Zyrtec. But all is not well. It (meaning that allergies) managed to carry some nasty infection into my lungs. So now I have bronchitis or some other nasty foul version of discomfort and pain brewing in my chest.  I am currently pouting about it, especially my normal desire to be productive is on low. Which honestly just annoys me. On a better note, that custom order is now done! I finished it yesterday afternoon. After my interview.... I haven't mentioned that yet.... I'm in the news, again. Not for anything bad, just a minor controversy. The city is trying to shut down the bar I work at. So I was interviewed at our protest by the Standard Examiner and Channel 4 News. Which has now lead, apparently, to a human interest story for the Standard Examiner about how 'normal' dancers are. I find it odd that I have to explain that I'm normal. Ok, I'm not normal. But I am not the negative preconceived notions about dancers. Anyway back to the subject on hand. I finished the custom order, and started back working on my samples for my line of scarves. So I am very excited about that.

Tuesday

I have been working on and off on a custom order for the last little while. Which is nice because I know that I'll b getting paid, but at the same time it puts all my plans on the back burner. That's the frustrating part. I have limited time as it is anyway, and looking at my project list just overwhelms me. I feel like I am falling behind. I am hoping that I get contacted by the farmer's market and another crafts fair I applied to soon. I'll feel better if I know that I have something to really work towards. Speaking of which I need to get ready for class and squeeze in some more time on that custom order.

Today is Thursday

I actually have the day off today. No school, no work, I have a couple small errands to run and that's it. What am I going to do with myself? Homework needs to be a priority. I have 2 weeks of History homework to do. And 2 projects due 2 days apart in my design class. Sigh. I want to play catch up on my crafting and my business. I want to paint bird houses with my daughter.

Print Photos

Thursday

So I have been moving and rearranging things all week, I've gotten very little done it the way of crafting or promoting my business. Now that some things are settling down, it's time to focus again.

Before work

I am sitting at my parents kitchen counter pondering all that I need to do and accomplish.... frustrating is what it is. I realize that I am very much so moving forward, and very much so staying still. I'm in list making mode for a lot of this, which some would find funny considering the chaos that is me typically. I am still working on my patterns/formulas for my accessory line. I have finished several projects over the last little bit. Which helps motivate me.  I have 2 projects that are at some level of completed and have a lot more planned. I am in the process of condensing down to just what I need or will definitely use. Focus. That's what I am working on. Focus.