Choices

• The world owes you NOTHING
  

I've given some thought recently to choices. And by that I mean accepting the choices we make. As an individual, the choices you make are completely your own. Every decision you have ever made has gotten you to this exact moment. Are you happy about that or not? If you are... great continue on. If not, then start making changes. History is not made by those who sit idly by or those who accept defeat before the fight has even begun. What cowardice to blame other for your life.



I'm not one to be on a soap box, but self-loathing is beneath everyone. I don't care who you are. That may sound arrogant, and it probably is, but in the small amount of life experience I have I've learned a few things. For instance, there are things that are beyond your control. How you react to those things is within your control, and as far as I'm concerned very telling. The trick is knowing the difference between what you can and can't change and doing what you can to get where you want to be. I wasn't happy, so I found things that did. Also, I'm doing what I can to do what I want full time (which is to be an artist, a dancer, a creative force... to reveal my passions for anyone willing to see)(yes that was a little dramatic, but that's how I feel right now) Back to my original topic.



Being responsible is another part of your choices. Be accountable for your actions and reactions. If you make a mistake you can always look back and say, "well, shit, I shouldn't have done that", then proceed to moving on. But then I tend to get past things rather quick. Life's too short, and I have better things to do.

To those of you who don't like what I said: Get off the high horse, it's back is sore.

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These are some of my art works form about a year ago, inspired by quotes printed on vellum. I had purchased these quite some time before that, and don't remember the publisher honestly. I dismantled it and sorted them all out after I bought them to meet my bizarre sense of organization:






I am hoping to post more in the coming weeks. I haven't shown these to anyone but my husband. I'm going back to my love of visual arts. I'm painfully slow at drawing, but since learning about collage and altered art - roughly 3 years ago - I've been motivated to try and free some of my creativity in a visual sense again. I still feel strongest in my love of crochet, knitting, and sewing.

I'm hoping to get the quilting foot for my sewing machine within the next month or so (providing that nothing comes up). It's pretty sad that I have to budget around a $25 gizmo, but money has been super tight (thank you to the US economy) and I haven't sold anything at my booth yet (thanks again). I do have faith that it'll all work out, but it's hard to have hope when I get so behind on things. And I'm not just talking bills. I've been working at the bar so much now that I'm behind on my knitting, crochet, and sewing... not to mention my art work. Oh, and house work... I'm not so great at it anyway, but lately I've been super unimpressive. I guess I'm just a little frustrated at everything and there's no one really to talk to about it because it's all just one big cruise liner we're one (only with out the itinerary and relaxing).

I don't have to say it, but I will..... We all seem to be working harder just to see things moving further away. There are days I look around and ask when is it my turn. When do I get to be the star, the silver... scratch that... gold lining. When will my ship come in? Will it ever?